My Last Battle
All my life
the censors have
circumscribed me
telling me what to do
dictating all that’s
to break free of
other friends too,
finally,
after years
of
struggle,
I no longer heed those voices
or their limits,
and
now I’m
free,
mostly,
just one voice remains,
the
biggest
meanest
toughest of all
but I’m on it
I bribe him with
promises of
(or at least the Bunny Ranch),
I distract him with beer,
I threaten
suicide,
but to no avail,
that son-of-a-bitch
still hasn’t figured
out
who the fuck
he
is.
_
Paul Hellweg has felt his whole life as if he didn’t belong. Then a few months ago he discovered a whole new world of kindred spirits in the poetry universe, both online and at readings throughout the Los Angeles area. He’s thrilled to have finally found a place where he fits in just fine, sober or otherwise.
All my life
the censors have
circumscribed me
telling me what to do
and what not,
what’s possible
and what isn’t,
dictating all that’s
expected,and for years I’ve struggled
normal,
accepted,
to break free of
parents
religion
society
government
editors
girlfriends
always the girlfriends,
other friends too,
finally,
after years
of
struggle,
I no longer heed those voices
or their limits,
and
now I’m
free,
mostly,
just one voice remains,
the
biggest
meanest
toughest of all
but I’m on it
I bribe him with
promises of
Paris,
Amsterdam,
Palermo,
(or at least the Bunny Ranch),
I distract him with beer,
I threaten
suicide,
but to no avail,
that son-of-a-bitch
still hasn’t figured
out
who the fuck
he
is.
_
Paul Hellweg has felt his whole life as if he didn’t belong. Then a few months ago he discovered a whole new world of kindred spirits in the poetry universe, both online and at readings throughout the Los Angeles area. He’s thrilled to have finally found a place where he fits in just fine, sober or otherwise.
